That’s What You Do

Marissa’s Story

Back in June, one Sunday when I was serving on the expressive worship team, Amanda came and grabbed me during the worship set. She had received a word that the Lord wanted to heal me, right there and then. I wish I had written it all down then, but she prayed regarding the thyroid and autoimmune issues she knew about. Then she began to pray specifically about hormones and women’s health. (Interestingly, I was diagnosed with PCOS the following month) While I did see less muscle aches, joint pain, and swelling over the next week, it wasn’t the instant supernatural healing Amanda and I expected.

Also during this service, the Lord also gave me revelation regarding Mark 5:34, where the woman with the issue of blood is healed by touching the hem of his garment. He reminded me that her healing came from faith; not Bible study, daily prayer, etc. Even more profound, He revealed that he did not say her faith healed her, but made her ‘whole’ or ‘well’, depending on translation. To me that is more than fixing a problem, but full restoration. So, over the last few months, I’ve clung to that promise, but really struggled with not seeing it yet. In this time, I developed migraines that interrupted my life, and emotionally struggled with the PCOS diagnosis. I’ve always expected that I’d be a mother, even as a young child, so the threat of infertility terrified me and was constantly on my mind. I was reminded of this fear every shift, as I am a labor and delivery nurse.

Fast forward to yesterday, it started like any other Sunday that I serve on the expressive team. During rehearsal, I certainly felt that ‘Yeshua’ by UPPERROOM was going to be powerful, but really didn’t think anything of it. Once we reached that point in service, the flag I planned to use didn’t feel right, so I switched to another, and shortly thereafter, found myself down on my knees worshiping. I knew it was the Holy Spirit – but it was different than I ever experienced. Usually I experience Him as a sweet, tender, nearness – but this was heavy, like a dense fog settling, and didn’t have an emotion associated with it that I could identify. During this time, he revealed to me that the “ahh ah ah ahhh” portions of the song are the moaning and groaning in the Spirit – when there aren’t words to pray. The next thing I knew, I heard Gunter come up and said “Jesus the healer is in the room and wants to do some things.” I raised my hand for healing prayer and was quickly surrounded by people praying over me. Holly came and began praying against the various issues I’ve been dealing with (we are in community together and I have shared a lot with her) and she shared with me that the Lord specifically said “don’t worry” about my PCOS, that he gives the desires of our hearts. I had a vision for the first time – I saw a toddler playing on the floor as I held a baby in my arms. It was so realistic, I could nearly feel the weight of a baby in my arms. I moved from weeping to absolutely sobbing, and all I could do was cry out “Holly, my babies! My babies!”

Now if that wasn’t enough, Gunter began calling out specific conditions for healing, and migraines came up. Not only was that the most recent development in my health saga, I had the worst one I have had on Friday night, requiring multiple medications & comfort measures and lasting for hours. I raised my hand and was surrounded again. I specifically heard Maude beside me, praying “not halfway, not 80%, not 90%, but complete healing because that’s what you do.” 
After service, I talked with Holly and thanked her for supporting and praying over me. I shared some of this experience with her, and it turned out she had also received the word of “moaning and groaning in the Spirit.” I have never received confirmation like that! When I shared all of this with Gunter, he said when he received the word of knowledge about migraines, he specifically felt pressure in his right eye – which is exactly how my migraine auras begin. 

I am amazed at how God saw me yesterday. I’m so excited to see how He continues to move and what He does in my life in the days and weeks ahead. I can’t wait to share a testimony of complete healing, but for now, I am keeping the faith and seeking Him.